RANDOM!

Well...I think I need to be provoked to update this thing. Thanks Brad. So last weekend I went to an AMAZING RA confrence called ISRAA, and it was an amazing time and I am on the Executive Board for next year as the Vice President of Administration!!! So yeah, met some cool kids, ya know...Got back to LRH on Sunday and went Ice Skating with Hillary!!! I love procrastinating and I'm good at study breaks :)

This week has been CRAZY! I feel like I havent stopped going since monday morning. Which is probly why i'm so exhausted lately. This probly is going to be the shortest post ever but I really dont have anything left to say :)

Hopefully things will run smoother once the semester gets going...

Shelly

Am I Missing Something?

Lately...well...lately I feel like maybe I'm missing something. Or maybe somethings missing from my life. I tend to jump to, oh! a boyfriend would do the trick :) but...i guess...i have to learn...that its not up to me. I read this book Marriable - the one I told you about before. and it really really kicked me in the face. Like hard. It basically pointed out all the things I do in relationships and said...yeah, those things? well they make a guy want to leave. I was like...wow...its so hard to hear sometimes.

I guess since right now I'm just getting over someone, I want so badly to have someone to occupy my time. I feel like I need to show that person that they totally missed out and not that they havent, but they probably dont care. ha. it sounds so mean when I write it, but its not that mean, theres just nothing between us. I guess I do that a lot ya know? I want to show someone that hey I'm okay look at me now! I can do whatever I want and you dont affect me anymore! Its okay for that person to not affect me, but I know that they dont, and so why do I need to prove it? Its like I want to so badly that I analyze everything that any guy says to me, and then when I think well...maybe? I've overanalyzed it waaaaaaay too far and shouldnt have even had the thought in my mind in the first place.

I think I'm just kinda in the dumps right now, I kinda feel like my life is missing something. That is why I'm starting to volunteer at the MERCY Community in downtown Springfield! Erin and I are going tomorrow I think and Jen and I are going Monday! I think I'm going to love it. I need something that occupies my time regularly where I can help people. I'm going to try this out for a couple weeks and then go ahead down to Big Brothers/Big Sisters! I consume my life with so many things that are just about me and I'm so sick of it! Yeah yeah yeah, last semester I went to Lousiana (twice) ;) and stuff but thats over! I cant stop doing things just because I took a couple trips!

welp, I gotta do some homework and then get ready for the Great LRH Roommate Swap of 2006!!
See Ya Around!
Shelly

Feels Like Home...

Well, after a week (or a couple days) of RA training, I think I'm ready for people to be here...well I'd better be ready kuz PEOPLE ARE HERE! I'm so glad for people to finally be back in LRH, it finally feels like I'm home!

I havent really done much lately, other than some amazing times with some cool guys (and girls) in the townhouses. Yesterday we played Risk. It was not so much of the fun. Probly woulda been funner (is that a word?) had I not been sick and slightly drunk on cough medicine. Me and Erin kicked butt for a while, but I hear Jeff won (only kuz he IMed me at 2am to rub it in my face) Good thing I wasnt awake.

I'm reading this book thats totally kicking me in the face right now. (ouch) Its called Marriable. I just bought it yesterday but I only have like 10 more pages and then I'm done! The other book I bought yesterday is called You DIDNT Complete Me. It looks just as amazing as this one.

I'm kinda missing the time with the other RAs on campus. Actually I really enjoyed training because of the new friends I've made! It was so amazing to hang out with people who understand exactly what I'll have to do/am doing and who understand how important my job is.

Well, I'm sitting at the desk. and I dont have homework. and I was late, so all I grabbed was my laptop. That's the reason for this post (as if I need one) But I have nothing else to say so I wont make this drag on...

Have a great week guys!
Shelly

Matt Wallace...You're Lucky

You're mostly lucky because since we're such good friends I wont be mad at you for making me do this :)

Four jobs you’ve had in your life: Brownfield's Dairy Barn :), Babysitting, Housing Services Aid, Resident Assistant

Four movies you could watch over and over: School of Rock, Zoolander, Win a Date With Tad Hamilton, The American President (thanks Edawg)

Four places you’ve lived: Rockford, IL; Armington, IL; Minier, IL; Springfield, IL

Four TV shows you love to watch: American Idol, The OC, CNN...sometimes..., Law And Order

Four places you’ve been on vacation: Orland0, Florida; Gatlinburg, TN; Portland, Oregon; St. Louis, MO (i know to some of you southerners thats not really vacation but for me...vacation :)

Four websites you visit daily: itsmemattwallace.blogspot.com, Twosouth.com, pictureoftheday.twosouth.com, facebook.com

Four of your favorite foods: Mashed Potatoes, School Lasagna, Chicken and Rice, PB&J (thats what i've been eating for every meal the last 5 days :)

Four places you’d rather be: Not sure I'd rather be anywhere else...

Four albums you can’t live without: Carrie Underwood - Some Hearts; WOW 2006; Derek Webb - She Must and Shall Go Free; Rascal Flatts - Melt

Four magazines you read: People, US Weekly, Entertainment (only kuz its free), Cosmo

Four cars you’ve owned: Ford Escort (totaled by me on the interstate) Buick Regal (Hit by Drunk Driver) 1995 Mercury Topaz (aw poor girl, shes getting ready to kick the bucket) and soon a 2001 Chevy Malibu owned by my Aunt.

Four people I'm tagging: JennGebb, Gretchen, Micah, Holly


Thanks Matt :) that was fun...sorta :
Goin to bed, training all day tomorrow
Shelly

Jesus Take The Wheel...

I <3 Carrie Underwood, just so you all know :) But more on that later...

I promised a Christmas/New Years update. Here it is :)

Christmas in Rockford was good, The first time i've seen my brother Greg since summer so...ya know...here's a picture of all us kids at my aunt's house

aw how cute huh? course the little boys couldnt just smile normal in any of the pictures so this is the best one...lol...Some pictures of my house (mom went a little decorating wild this christmas, but it looks pretty!) so yes. Christmas=good. After christmas, I went back to my Twosouth Room and cleaned it out and packed it up (ok...I watched Chris pack it up, but who's keeping track, I mean really) So that was fun, Then there's New Years!

I went to Brad's apartment and it was SOOO fun. We all had a really good time. We watched The 40 Year Old Virgin and made fun of Kyle :) and then most of us didnt like the movie so we stopped it early and played games and sat around and ate lotsa food. At midnight we went outside hoping that we could see the fireworks from Brad's parking lot but we couldnt, we could hear them however. So we were out there and someone banged on their window so we'd shut up (good impressions huh) At about 1:30 we all headed back to whereever we were staying (my last night in twosouth) So got to sleep about 3 and woke up around 11 and as I was walking out the door to go have lunch w/Gretchen I got an email from Mae saying that my keys were in my mailbox!! So i ran downstairs and got them, talked to mae for a bit and then went to lunch!

Funny thing of the day was: I was in the parking lot of Panera in Springfield and a man walked to the car parked next to me and i thought to myself, wow that looks like Jim Dunnan (my High School Principal....ok he was my principal for a year and then we got a new one) and I was a little nervous to get out and see if it was really him but then i saw his wife! so I jumped out of the car and realized that it was them, plus my high school english teacher, music teacher, and librarian! Whoa blast from the past! So we stood there for a couple minutes while they asked me why I was in Springfield.

Lunch was good, I've decided to step down as the freshman small group leader, it'd just be too much to handle. So thats good I guess, but ya know, kinda sad. Hopefully I'll find a couple girls that want to do a small group and read Captivating (the girls version of Wild at Heart).

Anyways, since I had my keys I spent most of the afternoon cleaning and bringing all my stuff upstairs. This week has absolutely flown by! I cant belive that in less than 24 hours I'll be in Springfield for the semester! So i've been packing and realized that I'm not gonna be able to fit all this in my car, so I have to bring the Green Van down to Springfield tomorrow so I can bring in all my stuff and then Mom and Dad are bringin my car down on Saturday!





Ok now to the stuff I really want to talk about. So this song. ugh. It just kicks me in the face. Its by Carrie Underwood (American Idol) and ugh. Here are the lyrics:

Jesus Take The Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It had been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didnt pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didnt even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I cant do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chacne
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
and the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw the baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray

She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I cant do this on my own
i'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on



I guess for me these driving/car analogies are what hit me. Even looking back on old posts about getting in the passenger seat and stuff...I just...man...just been thinking a lot about that lately and how things have just come together, and not how I ever would have expected them to ya know? like finally when i let go of what I wanted and said, hey. do it. you know whats right for me, finally things have been working out. now I just have to keep that attitude about my CIY internship. I know, i havent posted anything about that lately. I wont know (or i possibly wont know) until the end of the month now. not gonna lie, im pretty nervous but it'll work out i'm sure :)

ok.

its time to finish packing, pack the car etc.

My last post from home :)
Shelly

MY HAIR!!!

WOOHOO! I got my hair cut/highlighted today! I decided I'd let you all have a little look, so here's a few pictures!

So I didnt think that taking pictures of my dumb hair would be so hard. it was. lemme tell ya. so I'm done for now. :) got some Christmas pics put up soon!

Bye! - Shelly